Heart vs Head

I have strayed away from writing in my blog this year.  Two weeks after celebrating our 50th wedding anniversary, Merrill was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer.  My heart is broken, life will never be the same without him.  I cry every day.  I haven't had much interest in writing at all for genealogy was something I shared with my husband. 

My focus is looking forward to building a new life for myself.  There is always a battle going on within me, heart vs head.  Sometimes I must listen to my head and not my heart to make the right decision. The loving heart can blindside you and wrong choices can be made in making the right decisions for the future. The hard thing is learning and understanding the difference to achieve the right solution.  

It became important to me and our children to turn this negative situation into a positive one for not only us, but for Merrill as well.  On September 28 we will doing a walk in Boston for Unite to Fight Pancreatic Cancer.  Our team has been working hard and have raised a little over $6000.

I am just going to write off 2013.  I don't see myself having much if any free time, with moving, settling into the new home I purchased, then the holidays and Christmas shopping.